Swaziland-02

Dear God,
Things are definetly not what I had expected here in Swazi. I had all these thoughts about what I would be doing and where I would be staying. None of these expectations have happened so far. I just don't feel that Manzini, Swaziland is where you have called me. I truly know that I am where you want me for this moment but I still don't know what that purpose is yet. Maybe I won't know until years down the road. I really want to get to the Care Centers, maybe I can do something there. By the way it is kind of a let down when I come to Africa and everyone speaks English, unless I start the conversation then I cannot have a converstion in SiSwati. I know that you have a plan and that I am included in that plan but right now I really can't see it. Please continue to work in me and help me to see where you want me to be.

Love,
Lauren

Swaziland-01

Swazi is so beautiful. I can go out on the porch and see mountains and hills for miles all around. It is amazing that God created all the hills just so...they are perfectly arranged to where you can see for miles. The children have stolen my heart...all they have to do is smile and I can just melt. I want to make a difference in these kids lives. Many of them see tough love...I want to just show them love that greats them with open arms and holds them when they are upset or scared. I don't know if any of these kids have AIDS but most of them have probably lost family to it. I want God to break my heart for them! That is my goal for this month...have my heart completely, not partially, broken by God for these people!